Scared to lose

I am too scared to lose what I’ve got
The best of things, people and what not
And I try and try to fight these fears
But this darkness time n again just appears
Why do I give it so much space?
Why can’t it leave without a trace?
I am no coward, that much I know
Coz I fight each day, to let it not grow
But the moment loving words are spoken
This deadly dark head gets awoken
Shouting out loud inundating my brain
That you are soon to fall and abysmally fail
What’s led me here i cannot surmise!
When did I start witnessing the demise
Of courage and zeal and trust and love
When did this deep darkness rise above!
When did I start elbowing out merry souls?
Make them walk away leaving gaping holes?
And the fears I then have indeed come true
The darkness blasting its win like in a coup
Someday I’ll face it to ask what’s the fun?
In seeing me lose or always on the run?
I’ll muster up courage to give it a long stare
To check and see what’s deep down there
Is it the darkness winning this horrid game
Or is it just me, giving it a bad name?
I’ll wait for the day I win over this dread
Then gleam with joy to prove what I’ve said
That I’d fight for my tribe and keep them close
Wont scare them away, let’s see how it goes.